Saturday, 14 November 2009
I can't breathe easy.
I didn't manage to fall asleep for 2 nights already.Insomnia.Because something has been bothering me lately.Last night was the third.But somehow i managed to force myself to sleep at 5am.How?I played CS for hours and hours in order to make myself tired.Still, I woke up around 3 and a half hours later.Felt so awake, no idea why, then looked at my phone, Jun yi and dao han called and asked me to go all the way to Yishun (jeremy's place) to train for our upcoming 3 on 3 competition at bukit panjang govt. high.Not exactly a training session though. We were playing and laughing at the same time. Yet, I guess I managed not to think about it(the stuff that has been bothering me till now) at that point of time.Thanks guys.Thanks for the jokes and company.Had lunch at jeremy's place. Fried rice and fried bee hoon. I ate 3 plates. Was very hungry.Then disturbed dao han about him and jeremy's little sis -_-Yuki and jeremy went off to church for church b-ball whatever thingy.So jun xiong, jun yi, daohan and I went off to take MRT la. Then we splitted, left with daohan and I taking back to Jurong East then I dropped off at Clementi. He went to Dover, if Im not mistaken.Back to hostel - which is now. Am feeling so much better after seeing her.Yet, no one knows how painful it is in my heart.Well, thats life - my life.
Knowing the truth hurts the most.
Pretend as if I'm fine when I'm totally not.
How to erase this thing from my memory?
It bothers me, day and night.
How could you let that happen?
Why didn't you stop it?
Why didn't you do anything about it?
In the end, the one that hurts the most is still me..
The thing that is supposed to be mine will never be mine anymore, because it had been taken away by another one, and not me.
made a shot at: 5:36:00 pm
